great - as always. I tell you another way I'm grieving. I'm grieving for my own illusions - the many things I thought (hoped) were true and are now quite manifestly not. Things like believing that governments would take positive action around a global public health emergency, that international solidarity would prevail, that the "liberal international order" would come to the rescue. I'm so sad to know that it's not true at all. Probably never was, even though I thought (hoped) otherwise.